Yes, from the time I was a teenager, the Mormon Church was a puzzle to me. So much of it just didn't make sense, but the message I received was that if I had issues, then I just needed to pray more, study the scriptures more, and be more obedient - and then it would make sense to me. And believe me, I tried. I accepted the proposition that it wasn't the church, it was ME - that I was not worthy enough to understand it all. But regardless of how much confusion I felt, I kept plugging along, believing that if I just hung in there, one day it would all make sense. Never happened.
When I began studying church history in preparation for going on a Mormon Church History Tour in the Summer of 2001, I immediately began to discover that there are all kinds of sordid details in Mormon Church History. Naturally, my original reaction was disbelief - I must be misunderstanding something because these things couldn't have possibly taken place. And then, when I came to terms with the fact that these were true accounts of what had occurred back then and all the lies laced throughout Mormon Church history and doctrine, I began to kick myself for not researching this earlier, for just going along and accepting it all without doing my own actual research. In my opinion, this is one of the biggest problems with the Mormon Church - encouraging people to accept everything they are told and highly discouraging them from delving any deeper on their own. Blind faith rather than actual reasoning or critical thinking. Of course, since the church gives people the message that going ouside the "authorized areas" is a big No-No, it creates the type of situation where people "just believe." But just believing based solely on what a person is told is not wise. But that's what most Mormons do and seem to be just fine with it.
I am so glad that the Mormon Church is not a puzzle to me anymore. I am very grateful that I finally broke the mold and began to research outside the "accepted parameters." Of course, when I discovered that one of the characteristics of a cult is highly discouraging its members from researching outside what they have outlined as "accepted reading," I began to see the Mormon Church in a much different light. Little did I know, all those years ago, when people told me that the Mormon Church was a cult, and I disagreed, becoming very annoyed that my church was being put in that highly offensive category, that they were actually right. Live and learn.
And so, here is my latest hymn parody...
A MIGHTY PUZZLE WAS THE CHURCH
Sung to the tune of A Mighty Fortress is our God, #68A mighty puzzle was the church,
For many years, I struggled.
No matter what I read or heard,
So many issues lingered.
And so, through my research,
I found the Mormon Church
Is filled with many lies,
And so I must surmise
That Joseph Smith just made it up.
So when I left the Mormon Church,
Enormous burdens lifted.
The puzzle had been solved at last,
And all confusion ended.
Where I was once devout,
I simply have no doubt
That it is just a ruse
For which there’s no excuse,
Religious cult that’s full of lies.
Apostates seek to know the truth,
And see behind the curtain.
They don’t accept what they are told,
They want to know for certain.
They see through the façade,
Believe that it’s a fraud,
Reject what is not true
With an objective view,
And aren’t afraid to speak the truth.
It was not easy when I left,
With family members active.
But though they may not understand,
The truth is my one motive.
For once I saw the lies,
There was no compromise.
I knew that if I stayed,
It would be a charade,
And now I live authentically.
© Diane Tingen, 7/15/2011
I simply have no doubt
That it is just a ruse
For which there’s no excuse,
Religious cult that’s full of lies.
Apostates seek to know the truth,
And see behind the curtain.
They don’t accept what they are told,
They want to know for certain.
They see through the façade,
Believe that it’s a fraud,
Reject what is not true
With an objective view,
And aren’t afraid to speak the truth.
It was not easy when I left,
With family members active.
But though they may not understand,
The truth is my one motive.
For once I saw the lies,
There was no compromise.
I knew that if I stayed,
It would be a charade,
And now I live authentically.
© Diane Tingen, 7/15/2011
So many Mormons just stand there, staring at the missing puzzle piece, not allowing themselves to take the leap and do their own research. I will be forever grateful that I finally took that leap... |
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