Tuesday, December 27, 2011

YES, I COULD SEE THE LIES - LDS Hymn Parody #52

Looking back at my many years as a devout Mormon, I was truly a TBM who "just believed."  I knew that some things didn't make a lot of sense, but I tried very hard to have faith and to actually believe that there are some things that we can't understand in this life, that God's ways are not our ways, and that some day if I remained faithful, I would understand it all and know that it was worth it.  Of course, this is what I was told over and over again, not only in church but also at home by my very TBM father (who had a lot of gems like that which he shared over the years).  After all, that is the Mormon Way - to "just believe."

And that was my mindset until at 50 years old, I began doing some research in preparation for going on a Mormon Church History.  What I began to discover floored me at first, as I began to uncover the truth behind polgamy, polyandry, the First Vision, the supposed "martyrdom" of Joseph Smith, the Book of Abraham, the Book of Mormon, and so on.  So obvious were the lies that I became very upset at myself for just going along for my entire life, for not delving into the doctrines more deeply, and for not researching the history in depth.

It was an eye-opening experience, and the whole process upset me tremendously.  After all, I had based my entire life on the Mormon Church.  But after the anger began to dissipate, I realized that at least I discovered the truth - albeit later in my life.  That is what is most important to me.  THE TRUTH.  I may have wasted more than half my life on the Mormon Church, its lies and fabrications, but I will not waste the rest of it on a deceptive religion.  And although Boyd K. Packer may think that "Some things that are true are not useful," I believe that TRUTH is the most important aspect of life.  Being honest with yourself and everyone else.  If there are lies laced throughout something, then it should be discarded.  Deception is wrong.  Plain and simple.

Of course, I could go on and on about the lies and deception that are laced throughout Mormonism.  But suffice it to say that coming to the conclusions I did lifted a burden from my shoulders that was weighing me down tremendously.  Life is too short to adhere to something that causes you discomfort and pain.  And that is what living a lie was doing to me.  And so, I am now proudly ExMormon, trying my best to bring to light the fact that Mormonism is a bogus religion.  If only the TBMs out there would listen to me and the others who have reached the the same conclusions...

And so, here is my latest LDS hymn parody.  #52... and counting...

YES, I COULD SEE THE LIES
Sung to the tune of Lord, I Would Follow Thee, #220

Through examining and research,
I could see the stack of lies.
And as I researched the history,
There could be no compromise.
Through examining and research,
Yes, I could see the lies.

When I finally did some research
On my own objectively,
Then the lies became apparent,
The deception I could see.
When I finally started research,
Yes, I could see the lies.

Who am I to judge another
When I bought it all those years?
But I know I can’t keep quiet,
It is not as it appears.
Yet I cannot judge another
Though I can see the lies.


I would be my brother's keeper,
And so I must vocal be.
If the ones who know stay quiet,
How will truth they ever see?
I would be my brother's keeper

For I can see the lies.

And I hope that they will see it,
All the Mormons still out there.
See the lies throughout the doctrine,
The deception, be aware.
Yes, I hope that they will see it
As I have seen the lies.


© Diane Tingen, 12/27/2011

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