The term "apostate" is a label with very negative connotations, like the term "anti" (as in "anti-Mormon propaganda"). In my opinion, using that label is one of the ways that the higher-ups try to control the masses. Terming something "anti" makes all Mormons cringe, and they usually immediately condemn the person "spouting the anti-Mormon propaganda" as they begin to defend their religion. Defending one's beliefs is fine as long as those beliefs are defendable, but in the case of most Mormons, they simply repeat what they are told to believe, not beliefs that they have formed through any independent study.
Since it is independent study from "unauthorized sources" that eventually led me away from Mormonism, I question even more than I would have previously as to why those sources are termed "unauthorized" when they do not tell lies, but rather the truth. But then, since the Mormon Church tends to play very fast and loose with the truth, relying on its version of things is not wise. Looking at that "directive" not to do "research from unauthorized sources" also brings up the very strong possibility that the Mormon Church is actually a cult since that is one of the characteristics of cultism. If an organization is above board in their doctrines and teachings then research from "unauthorized sources" shouldn't make any difference. But if that organization directs its members to only research and study from materials they authorize, red flags should go up immediately.
So many Mormons truly believe that looking at "unauthorized" information leads to APOSTASY, and since they are told that apostasy is the most abhorrent sin, they steer clear of any materials considered to be "anti," including information that would shed light on the reality behind it all. But if indeed "the Glory of God is intelligence," then true believing Mormons are also denying the validity of that statement.
Sadly, most Mormons will never be able to look beyond the "anti" label to get to the core of the lies perpetuated by the LDS Church. The internet contains links to a plethora of information that shows without any doubt that the Mormon Church is not true, but most Mormons will never even read or consider this information because of the "anti" label given to it. Truth is but a click away -- and to paraphrase a popular Mormon scripture, "If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of Google."
But while Mormonism is obviously built on an elaborate web of lies, so many people continue to go along with it, defending its deceptions and contradictions, claiming to believe in it all "by faith." I simply don't understand their logic, because when the facts contradict what a person is told to believe by faith, it is not faith anymore, but rather denial.
I am so glad that I finally saw the light and realized that the Mormon Church is not only untrue, but that its teachings and doctrines are detrimental to my mental health and well-being. Blindly following things that you are told to believe is not healthy. Doing your own research and deciding on your own is the best course of action for any person. Rationalizing out the lies, deceptions, cover-ups and contradictions only leads to accepting things that eat away at your ability to think for yourself and formulate your own opinions.
Making a 180 and turning away from Mormonism was the best thing I ever did. I do not regret for one second being an "apostate" despite its negative connotations in religious circles. I only wish I had apostatized much earlier in my life. Hanging on to thoughts and ideas simply because I was told to do so was killing me inside. That type of conformity creates a mind-numbing existence that is very difficult to reverse.
Being born and raised Mormon, I was programmed from a very early age to not question, to have faith, to just believe. Once I reached my teenage years, though, I began to question not only the doctrine but also the way in which women are treated as second-class citizens. But being the good little Mormon clone that I was back then, I shelved all those thoughts and tried to continue to go along with the program for many more years.
So when you get right down to it, I guess I was a "future apostate" for many years before becoming one in reality. And as shown in this picture, it isn't very hard to spot the "future apostate" since they are the ones who tend to look in the other direction from the masses, looking for answers to complex questions, instead of just going along (like the "sheeple" tend to do). But although I probably was a "future apostate" for many years, I wish that I had begun to question more deeply earlier in my life. Woulda, Shoulda, Coulda, I suppose...
But even so, I'm just glad I finally recognized the truth when I did instead of simply going along with all the lies all my entire life.